...what words can i say?...

[now playing: life on mars? - david bowie. i love this song so so much.]

my mom died a year ago.
i wish i could've been with her instead of in italy.


It seems so long ago
But it’s only been a year
Since I sat by your bedside
Sang songs of old
Though I know you couldn’t hear
I remember
Always wondering just when
This day would come
I didn’t think
It’d come so soon
You had so much left to see
Your daughter’s marriage
Grandchildren
But instead
You were lying right before my eyes
Those last precious moments
Slipping faster than I could catch
How I wish I could turn back time
Tried to learn more
Tell you I love you
One last time in person
Instead of on the phone
A year without you
And even more to come
I wish just one last time
To hear your voice again
To hear you singing me a lullaby
And to hug you as I listen to you
Tell me that you love me
It’s those little things
That I miss so much


she's so missed.